Day 15: A List To Help

When I thought of doing this blog the idea sounded simple.  Each day write one thing I am grateful for, and maybe some days elaborate a bit more.  I'd hoped to find time each night to reflect on the day and find a moment that I could be grateful for, something specific for each day.  That has proven to be a harder thing to do then I'd originally thought.  The reason it feels difficult tonight is not because I don't have things to be grateful for; the opposite is actually true.  I am having a hard time thinking of something tonight because of my anxiety and depression.  

Some days the feelings come out of nowhere, and I am ill-prepared to battle them away.  I've certainly been doing better, but today was a harder day.  I've been told there will be set-backs, and that it's typical to feel like crap sometimes, but hearing it doesn't make it easier to cope when you find yourself stuck in a maze of your thoughts.  

Tonight I've decided to make a list.  The list will not be complete, and it will not be in any particular order.  What I will do tonight is create a list to come back to when I'm having days or nights like tonight.  This list will serve as another tool in fighting off what I cannot always control.  

Here goes:

I am grateful for:

1. Justin
2. My Mom
3. My Dad
4. My Brothers
5. Tanasi
6. All of my In-Laws
7. My nieces and nephews
8. My Friends
9. Ollivander
10. My home
11. My car
12. My job
13. The food in my refrigerator
14. Music
15. Dragonflies
16. Disney
17. Books
18. My education
19. Rainbows
20. TV and Movies
21. Road Trips
22. My faith
23. Memories
24. This blog
25. The people who read this blog
26. Meds
27. Doctors
28. My co-workers
29. My country
30. Photographs
31. Apps
32. Games
33. Love